What I ate and drank today
What??? Alright, alright… Hold your fire. I can explain!
06:50 Chirp! Chirp! Woke up wide eyed and ready for the day, a good half hour before my alarm was due to go off as well! Ahh, that’s more like it! Starting to get my early morning energy back. Nice.
07:15 Meditated for 15 minutes then BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! My alarm went off. That’ll teach me for getting cocky about my early morning energy.
07:45 Gorgeous breakfast. Chia with Mixed Berries:
No added sweetener, just chia soaked in water and some defrosted mixed summer berries form the freezer. I blended 4 tbsp’s of them and mixed them into the chia, then added some whole berries on top. I sprinkled on my favourite – cinnamon – and thoroughly enjoyed eating every mouthful. Yum.
11:11 It was chucking it down outside. I sat looking out the window whilst eating some carrot sticks dipped in mashed avocado and listening to ‘Complicated’ by Avril Lavigne; then felt a bit stupid and got on with my day.
13:30 Lunch. Rainbow Chard and Spinach Salad with Cacao Nibs, Chilli and Cumin:
The cacao nibs and fresh chilli made all the difference in this vibrant mound of greens. I shall endeavour to remember to put them in more salads in the future..
14:00 Lost half an hour of my life staring at this:
14:30 CAN’T FOCUS. Trying to work on a project but all I can think about is going over the road to buy a bar of Green & Blacks. Just imagine…curled up on the sofa, fantasy frothy cappuccino in one hand, an entire bar of Green & Blacks in the other…
14:31 I want something sweet.
14:32 I want something sweet
14:33 I want something sweet
14:34 I want somethin- SLAP.
15:00 Have an interesting observation on why I’m wanting to eat. As there really is nothing much to eat in the house, I am not able to eat whenever I get that little urge to. Not that I normally eat like a house or anything, but I definitely do pick at food, especially to distract myself from unwanted emotions. There is quite a bit of uncertainty in my life at the moment, not that I’m complaining – things could be a lot worse – but it can be an uncomfortable feeling at times and eating can temporarily relieve it. Just the simple act of chewing makes me feel better sometimes (although chewing gum never works so that my theory out the window). I know this is why we have such a problem with obesity, alcoholism and drug addiction. Facing our emotions is a terrifying thing. If we don’t cover them up with food, drink or drugs, what do we do? We have to deal with them, and this can be extremely painful; it’s just too much for a lot people. No one enjoys feeling emotionally exposed and vulnerable. Regular exercise, meditation and a diet of unprocessed whole foods can massively help deal with negative emotions, but for many those things seem too far out of reach. A few weeks back, a good friend of mine sent me this video – Brené Brown – The Power of Vulnerability. If you find emotional eating is something you sometimes struggle with, I highly recommend you watch this video. Brown has spent the last ten years studying vulnerability, courage, authenticity, and shame, in order to help us “cultivate the courage, compassion, and connection that we need to recognise that we are enough – that we are worthy of love, belonging, and joy”. Brown is hilarious too – so even if you’re the most chilled out, sorted, I-eat-ten-pies-a-day-and-am-totally-fine-with-that kind of person, it’s still worth a watch!
17:15 Tea time (as we say in Yorkshire). Steamed celeriac, carrots, leeks and garlic, drizzled with olive oil and topped with nutritional yeast:
21:00 It’s confession time. Ok, let me start from the beginning (I’ll try to keep it short). Basically, I’ve got an audition on monday and I’ve got to do a German accent for the role, right? Anyway, I got a random text on my phone yesterday from my friend Gunnar who is, you’ve guessed it – German! I told him about the audition and he ever so kindly offered to come all the way from London to Brighton that evening to help with my accent, to which I said – thank you very much, that would be amazing. So! We spent a good few hours in the pub (where I had the 2 bottles of sparkling mineral water!!!) and then Gunnar wanted to get something to eat. Gunnar, a massive meat eater, has never eaten a vegan meal before in his life, so of course I dragged him to Aloka – “You’ll love it! Honest!”. Anyway, it turns out he did love it, but he wasn’t loving drinking alone so much. So in a complete act of kindness and compassion, I had a small glass of vegan, organic, sulphite-free, bio-dynamic, grapes crushed by the feet of tibetan monks – wine. There. Now, the few spoonfuls of raw chocolate mousse I had was a complete accident and that is the God’s Honest Truth! Anyone who know’s me can vouch for the fact that I am easily distracted and very forgetful. When it came to desert time, I was so deep in conversation that I completely forgot about the sugar free thing. It was only on my fourth mouthful that I went “OmmhmyGod!” and put my spoon down and hand over my mouth. But come on…it was raw, it was sweetened with xylitol, so really, I’ve not actually done anything that bad… No refined sugar, honey or agave has passed my lips, and they’re the ones I was most bothered about. So I’ve decided not to feel bad about it, and enjoy the fact that I got to have a sneaky bit of pudding. Woohoo!